Swinging

Yet another idle week here. I don't have much to add in this blog for this week. My photography projects and linguistic endeavors are all on stand-by. This week I've been doing some eyes check-up examinations and consequently, I didn't have much time to work with my camera or think of something to do with my camera (just a little). After applying the eye-drops before the examination, it hinders my vision. Thus, most of the day for me would be to relax, and sleep.
Initially, the primary check-up doesn't give a good indication of a good health. There is a chance for Retinitis Pigmentosa, which is a hereditary condition that runs in the family. My eldest brother, and one of my older sisters are already suffering from this condition, and it leaves them helpless, specially with no ability to drive the car. With the responsibilities on my shoulders in this house and taking care of Mom, such news leaves me hanging in the mid-air in between moods fluctuations, in a time that I'm already suffering from those swings (and that's why I didn't post last week).
All what I want to do for the time being is play games, games and more games, trying to vent the bad thoughts out as much as possible...

I Hate Those...

Not so brilliant week. Was fluctuating between being idle and tired and being busy and... tired. I didn't use my camera much this week, so not much to be posting about really, nor did I work with my Ayvarith project for some long time now (even before I go to Hajj). Just one experience with photography lately, in which I've used my flash, again.

Next

I like to think of it as the electrical chair effect. In this shot I was dangling the flash unit above the lazyboy, and I had to suffer from some awkward moments when the lateral extension would slide down each time I raise it up high.

Settings of the shot

I know. The room is a mess. Always been a mess. Anyway, in order to keep the flash this high, I had to hang some weights (dumbbell weight disks) on the lever. Maybe you can see some black circles in the image.
In the beginning I was trying to take this shot with my 18-55mm lens, but then I changed it to the 15mm fisheye lens to include more space (took the shot again with me sitting on the lazyboy and my foot didn't show with 18-55mm lens).

I'm thinking now of doing experiments with all my lenses to find the "sweet spot" as they call it sometimes, which is supposed to be the f-number at which the image is the sharpest (and this has nothing to do with the depth of field). It will be a long process somehow and eye-tiring one, but hopefully I will get some useful results from all of this. In the mean time, I do really need to work more with my camera. My mood swings are, sort of, getting out of control.

My car is not fixed yet. The parts, as the vendor people say, will come in two weeks. The expenses for this are higher than I expected. I hate cars. I hate cars more than I hate hell itself. The discount they offered is like 20%, so I'm flattered for such a generous offer. And please note the sarcasm...

Mentis Abstractivus...

Partially busy week. And I mean busy by sense of being busy at work itself. I'm conducting an experiment with my director (boss) in the field of gamma rays detection. Despite the simplicity of the experiment, but it takes so much time (around one hour and a half in good conditions). The first phase, for now, is supposed to take around 9 days, and I've done 5 already so far. Beside other things to do, I barely have some time to keep on reading. However, I'm almost finished with these books.

Fasting for more than two weeks now leaves my time restricted. I can't resist the afternoon's nap until the time to break the fast, and doing some work-out in hope to increase the vitality of my body, all of that leaves no time for some of my projects. Yes, my Ayvarith recording is still on hold as I don't know what are the problems I'm facing. I think I do have some mic-phobia too!
In a desperate move, however, I've been taking my camera with me to work for some days, and also tried to do some work with my sound trigger (that I've tried only once). Found myself, or should I say my brain, works more into the shapes. I really don't know if this is the effect of reading after George Barr or simply it is what you can find in modern architecture, but simply this is the catch of my eyes. I have to say I'm sort of glad for some of the catch.
One of those catches, again, got affective if I can say simply by cropping some portions of it. I said before that one of the illusions to make is to crop some areas that send the message of spatial recognition to the mind

Geometrical Play I

Geometrical Play II

Yes. The two images are similar with one little difference; one of them is turned upside down. Maybe you could tell right away which is which, but I can't judge myself because I'm the photographer and I already know which is which and it is imprinted in my mind now. However, one or two people did already miss it up and guessed wrong! I feel happy for the confusion here!

Geometrical Play (original scene)

As you can see here, I've just cropped the ground. I think that point is what translates the image to the viewer and missing it up would confuse the viewer. Anyway, this is my aim in the beginning! Creating some illusion, but I'm not sure how affective it is as I said before, because I'm the photographer here. My only testimonial is taken from two viewers only. To add a bit to the confusion, I've numbered the turned upside version with "I" and the correct one as "II". Minds sometimes adhere to the order of mathematics and take for granted that "I" must be the original, I guess?

On the other hand as well, one of the abstracts that caught my eyes is the shadows play; specifically by noon time. The beauty of such shadows is simply, lines. Maybe there are no curves, but there are lines in a zigzag shape. I have to say though, it was not so easy to catch these lines from a proper angle, adding to that, without a tripod.

Linear Shadows

The shadows here are taken with low angle (I had to go downstairs some steps and lower my back). After all, there is some cropping of course and a tilt. The tilt is aimed at making 2 horizontal lines in the middle of the image. Well, maybe I needed to do some skewing here. The image above is prepared from a single RAW. One of the things that I've had hard time with, is the White Balance (WB). This is not the first time anyway. Shooting in the sun is always problematic even if the camera is not directed to the sun's direction, as the WB can make the decision hard to make. I feel the image being dull because of the tiling's color, and making them blue (cold temperature) would interfere a bit with the shadows, so I decided to leave it at that point.
On another occasion though, I thought working with HDR would help me on making a better decision, but I was wrong, again. The problem gets even more complicated when tone-mapping the HDR and adjusting the color temperature from there.

Shadow Tilings (HDR)

Not only the WB was hard to make out here, but cropping was so as well, and the borders of the tilings were more pronounced in this angle. The cropping was a must here and not optional, as the space was narrow, and using a fisheye lens (or even my 18-55mm) would include portions of the stairs and the building. The zigzag lines also, somehow, corrupted the symmetry that I was working for. Maybe it is something to re-visit at another time.

My journey was still going on with my work place. Sometimes you just have to look and "think" instead of just looking. I work in this place 5 days a week, for more than 5 years now, and guess what? There are features that I've just "thought" about and decided to check what I can do with.

Looping Loop

The structure above is hung or welded above the ground, between the pillars and the wall (you could see the edges in the previous images). Merged with HDR, tried to add drama with colors by putting down the saturation for the highlights and putting up the saturation for the shadows (which are settled mainly in Reds). Pushing the Black level a bit to help with it but I think I didn't like it much. Crops existed here too and some perspective corrections as well. If it was in my ability to shoot this again, I would zoom in more and go up to its level and shoot, but I don't have this capability right now, as the structure is around 3 meters above the ground. Anyway, I do prefer the black and white version (and some people already liked it that way).

Looping Loop (BW)

Moving now to my second trial with my sound trigger. I have to say it wasn't successful as I wanted. The main failure here is that I couldn't make the flash shoot for one time only. Adjusting the sensitivity of the sound trigger didn't help either. The experiment was done with playing cards deck, but after all I got some shots that I did submit to some stock sites already.

To Gamble

No. I don't gamble. It's just a title here! The movement blur you see is caused by the several flash shots as the sound of the cards when they are shuffled keeps on triggering the circuit, and in a shutter speed of 15 seconds, lot of pictures taken in this trial were blown out. It was indeed a gamble in the dark, and guess I've lost it. I have to think of some way to limit the number of fires from the flash. There is, however, another idea for this sound trigger that still in the process of cooking yet in my mind.

Last night was a sleepless night. Literally. I really don't know how I'm typing this right now (Thursday) as I didn't sleep a bit all night and came to work (and worked in the lab for hours and then coming here to post something!). Anyway, despite the frustration, there was hope. A hope in an image I've totally forgot about (again!).

Visitors

The weird combination of factors in this image makes it special to me and to my surprise, just when I pulled down the Exposure slider in the RAW editor, all the details of the sky and the clouds started to appear and the scene turned silhouette. The sun was rising and the sky was blue, but yet, it looks more like a black and white. Not completely, but what I mean is, the saturation is low in the sky. The high ISO level of 12800 made me desperate about this image in the beginning. In the beginning means like, when I took it in the first time back in October 2010. With lowering the Exposure (and increasing the Recovery factor in the RAW editor) seems that the noise level (specially the chromatic noise) got reduced significantly. That does not mean completely vanish, not even by cleaning plugins like NeatImage, for example, but the good news here, it is a silhouette. You have no details in the subject's shape to worry about! so, you can go a bit of extreme with your cleaning tools!
The image reflects my mood indeed, without me planning it. All what I was doing back then was chasing some ravens or crows in the sky. Suddenly it touches your mood once you play with it for the sake of playing with it! This teaches me to always visit what I was desperate of before. Who knows what you can get out of these images that you might think they are useless snapshots. But the main factor here is, what's your mood is about?
Some friends commented already on it saying it looks like something from Hitchcock shows, and later reflecting on it, it does remind me of The Lost Crown and Jonathan Boakes! I think I will print this one and see how it is. I'm sure some websites did reject it already for the noise level still. Oh well...

It's weekend. Finally. Guess what? My friend is inviting me for dinner for some occasion he had. Well, the bad news is... I wish I didn't eat the whole week!!!

Excitement Needed...

Days passed since I translated something from Alexander's story. Thus, today, I decided to work more than 2 verses. I translated 3 verses, yet my aim was 4. Surprisingly, some work (as in, my work place) just decided to occur when I'm completely off mood, and trying hard to translate some verses here. It is obvious though that I can't work on the translation from home, since I always got something to do or just need to rest. Maybe I need some excitement in my life other this rubbish that I live in every day.

I've brought my book here about Architectural Photography as well, so I went on reading in between the verses I was translating. We had some class in our center and I was a bit lazy to do things. I have to give some illustration by next Tuesday, and no mood for it from now. I just took a look at the things that I want to do and the pile was so huge that made me feel down. I need to regulate and divide my time, but this bloody mood swing never leaves me alone...

Speaking of excitement, it is one of the words that I made for today;

Excitement: þarþaríþá [Ankh: TurQTuryTa]. Feminine noun. It comes from the verb (þarþar) meaning "to excite." I don't know really how or why I made it that way, but the sound of the word itself made me smile a bit. "þ" is like "th" in "thin" and "think."

Time to pack my stuff now and do something useful. Yes. That's getting back home... instead of listening to my colleagues arguing.

Stimulus

Quiet weekend. Not going out or anything but sitting here facing my photoshop and mangling with my photos. I woke up at almost 9 p.m. last night and stayed awake until the morning of today. Diarrhea was attacking me now and then. I think it is a consequence of the change in weather or the wave of dust we had lately here. However, by the morning time and just before the sunrise begins, I started the engine and went over to the beach beside some restaurants there to try to catch a glance of the Kuwait Towers and convert the images into an HDR. Boy, was I sick of the situation! Kids and families were sitting there before the break of dawn and playing soccer as well! The most amazing interaction was, when I was pointing my camera in some direction and then suddenly and icecream guy looked at me and just stood there and not budging. I know what's the definition of being rude but this guy can be set as an example!

However, I left the beach in a hurry as I couldn't catch much and the sun started to rise already. I think HDR are best when you have a dark atmosphere somehow and not to catch photos under plain lights. This is my impression at least. I might post some photos for the Kuwait towers later on though.
After leaving the beach I was heading to some market to buy some stuff for my own breakfast but unforutnately on the way I felt such a severe pain that made me get a U-turn and head back. On the way back though, and despite the pain, I decided to stop a moment after I glanced some view that captured my attention, and so I decided to snap it. Of course, after snapping, the work at home starts:

The picture above was taken from several angles but I think this is the best angle it was taken with. At home, the picture was composed into HDR and then several processes took place to enhance colors and give some other effects to the image. This scene reflects the old and the new Kuwait and whether we are building or knocking down our heritage to be a nation without a history. The old muddy house below dates back somehow to the 1950s at least, judging from the way it was structured.

Last night as well, and since I was not going out anywhere, I spent most of the time playing around at some of the photos I took of the dome, that I snapped on the 12th. I had a problem since the best image I had and composed into an HDR was in fact not centered and the right side of the image was cut. After many, many, many trials and hours of working on it, I think I got a fine result by now, although I can't say it is as pretty as the one I did before and posted in the last entry. This image was composed of sticking and gluing parts of other images together and doing a short panoramic merge for 2 images and then taking parts from other images to fix the lost area. After all, I took the complete half (left side) of the image and tried to complete the right side with it. When all failed because of the light and shadow in the image itself, I got some success, when I converted the image into a rectangular coordinates then back to polar (guys who deal with photoshop know this from the distort menu). This move filled in some empty spaces in the image which made me crop it later on with some equality on the sides.

Just few hours ago, I was also working on the panoramic view, taken from the same hall of dome, and despite the colors, it had in fact lot of noise and remove them I had to sacrifice somehow with the sharpness of the image, which makes me reluctant a bit to submit it to stock photos sites. They are hard to accept such "normal" photos even! The real size of the image is supposed to be 240cm tall and around 110cm wide, and sorry can't convert this to feet right now!

Notice that the "pipe" looking thing at the top of the image, is in fact the pillar that was just behind the camera. The photo shoot was running from the ground level (at 0 degrees) and I was pushing the camera upward for few degrees between every shoot. At the end, when the camera was at the final position (90 degrees) you can see the result is a pillar going on the top of the image!
i have to make some cleaning for the images taken in the past 3 days. I have 3 folders so far and the PSD (photoshop format) files are mixed with JPGs. The size of the 3 folders reached almost 2GB!!! I have to remove stuff, and store it the usual way in its own folder to be packed later on on a DVD, but that does not mean my work with the dome is over yet. I'm still planning to look more into it so I might get a new idea and new construction that can be made with what I have so far.
An idea just occured to me, I might make a shoot of my own work place from the outside. But such a building is a sensitive place to be posted in stock photos!

It had been some days now and I didn't do any work with my Alexander's story, which made this blog more like an artistic place for photography and not the conlang of Ayvarith. The translation is almost stopped. I have to think of some way to stimulate me on writing more of the translation! Now, with my partner's coming back from vacation, I think I might have some time for myself and try to write down both, the Alexander's translation and the Blackened Image story. The month of fasting, Ramadhan, is on the doors by next week or so, thus I don't know how am I going to do, specially that I need some stimulants (coffee, redbull, ...etc). I pray my mood would be in a better situation by the coming days. Mood is very important in writing, and for this I didn't write any poems lately, and my pace with other activities is downed. All what I'm waiting for, for now, is my vacation...

Time In No Time

It was somehow a quiet day today... not much troubles! But I had to spend most of the time coping with this damned connection here which was like ON and OFF most of the time, while I download some of the files from one of my accounts in GeoCities. I should check if they enabled the FTP for this purpose, it was a tiresome task and took over most of my time. Right now, I finished downloading the contents of 3 of my accounts, and yet there are another 3 to go (or is it 2? I can't remember). The idea of this close-down strikes me with nostalgia, if I can call it so. I think there is no way but to re-build and make a new theme for the Ayvarith website... somewhere else this time.

The yield for today's translation was 2 verses, reaching line #480, which would be something else if I corrected the missing numbers that I've found! I didn't find more missing lines so far, which makes me relax a bit. Thinking about the transliteration that I have to do shakes my mood violently... I don't know when to do this, and I think I failed to push myself to work on it at home. I'm busy playing some games! Games are so important for me and I take it as a homework!

I didn't work on my story for days now, but thinking of working on it little bit after posting this entry. It would be awesome if I can manage to be some where, maybe overlooking the sea and try to concentrate on writing it... nature is an eloquent motivational speaker.

If only I can control my mood... I would have plenty of time for everything...

On the other hand, we got some photos from Iraq, from the holy site of Al-Kazimain, from a friend of the family, Sayyid Abbas. Notice that "Sayyid" is a title and not a name (though some people use it as a name). I managed to manipulate them a bit with photoshop to make more vibrant colors, since most of the photos were taken in a dusty weather. Please, click on each photo to read a commentary about it:

Busy Day...

A busy day. Couldn't do much translation work today, opposite to last Thursday when I finished 4 verses. A record for me for the time being!

I couldn't take a nap in the office as I usually do, because I HAD to sort out some applications for applicants to choose an adequate secretary, or as they like to call themselves now, an administrative organizer. I really don't care much about it, all what I need is someone that can speak English to communicate with my colleague here. To me, I lost a valuable time. Could've used this time for translating some lines. I did one paper already but I have a headache now and I can't do more for the time being.

I've been driving down town to get some stuff for my work place with the "pitty cash." I was amazed that they announce in the forecast on the radio that the dust is clearing off and giving way, while I was driving and can barely see for 100m in front of me! Hilarious! And tomorrow I have another round.

I had to spend some time also to chat with an old friend over the MSN. A french friend. It was somehow a short chat and she had to leave but I let out some burden from my chest. I feel mountains lying over this chest. This morning I got myself 2 notes, one is the usual one that I use for my diary, and the other is a black one... to pin down some... blackish deeds I've done. I might release some pressure from this chest. I didn't tell my MSN friend about all of that but... I might do as well later on.

Losing concentration and the mood for everything... specially work.

I'm working on completing the story that I started which is supposedly to be a mysterious one... ah well... needs lot of work. So, I'm seeking the help of google for some tips.

Exhaustion...

Exhaustion. Extreme exhaustion. I try to stay focused on what I'm doing but I can't keep my eyes open. No power to do anything almost.

In the meantime, I'm trying to make my sketch for the manuscript model. It is hard to do any ornamentations. I usually do a lot of line-art when I'm bored in classes or meetings. But here, I try to find ideas to ornament in the center of the page still! I don't know how am I going to do the main drawing.

While this mess goes on, I still get some words inspirations and made two poems. The first, I called it "The Ballroom" while the second one I called "Avenue 51." Avenue 51 was where my old house lied. I recalled some of the memories there and pinned that down.

My little kitty (well, not really mine but I feed him daily) had disappeared suddenly and we don't know where is he yet. I hope he shows up... alive. Last time I found him out of the house on the floor breathing hardly. He drank a huge amount of water compared to his little size. I hope this won't happen again.

As for now, I don't know when to try to translate the 6th part of the story of Alexander. Just looking at this huge amount of papers makes me shiver and change my mood! Lot of things to do, and my mood (and my power) is not helping at all...

Slow Progressing...

After finishing major stuff for work and my online course I might have plenty of time in my hands (neglecting the fact that I didn't work on the Arabic poster that I always wanted to do), but still I can't work on the story... the mood swings take a large portion of my mind.
I tried to write down some words but the story is still in its beginning although I reached 70s in lines' numbers.
The list of games is growing and I can't play them too since there is no mood as well!!!
Thinking of doing a simple homepage for my brother to put his CV on it with some of his work. He might be able to work online as well.
In the same time, I'm still planning to visit the island of Failaka even though I never heard back from those people. At least just to visit the place and change some mood away from the city. I need to get the schedule. It is almost the end of March now and very likely we might go out in April if I was lucky enough! ..... no one is able to get the schedule of the trips to the island and I'm busy here in this office doing stuff and can't leave that long (and if I have the time, no mood too).

You might be surprised to see me talk about my mood all the time but, this is my main problem. Everything is controlled by my mood. I can't enhance that, and everytime I try to do so I just fail again and again! What to do if you have a noisy home in the first place and surrounded by people that look at you as an alien?

Well, Beannacht Lá Fhéile Pádraig everyone, Happy St. Patrick Day (nope I don't celebrate it!).