Project Alexader, is over...

Finally, and after many upheavals and events, I put an end to the story of Alexander, ending with the 6th part in 3000 lines. It will be a really hard work to translate all of that indeed. It is but time to start a new story about the town of Qafra. Didn't think of a twist though.

I feel a bit of sadness though, since the death of a little kitty that was born in our yard some weeks ago. The two kittens were OK in the beginning but then started to get thinner and thinner. One has passed and I'm trying my best to feed and take care of the second one. I'm trying also to cool down the heat in the yard with this crazy sun in the summer by spraying some water with a manual air-pump. I feel my brain got out of my ears already.

The late kitty, 2 weeks almost before his death

I sent the Visa request via DHL to the Irish embassy in Riyadh, since we don't have one here. It was somehow a complicated matter for me since it is the first time I do all of that. Everything went OK I suppose, and I'm waiting for my DHL to arrive back with my passport. I made booking already for the place I'm going to stay in Ireland, though I was advised not to go in October because the weather is "so" cold there at this time, but I decided to give it a shot. I went to Iran before, this cannot be worse! All what is left for me now is the tickets which I'm still looking after for some good bargain. The Turkish Airways (Türkçe Hava Yolları) seem to be the best bargain so far.

Summer is coming and I hope it will be a quiet one... but surely it's going to be a heated one indeed.

Betenic...

Finally, Betenic is online: http://www.omniglot.com/writing/betenic.php

I removed a wisdom tooth which I guess is the final one to remove, since I removed most of them when I was 17. The pain is gone but I have to cope with the blood still.

My mind is still scattered. I didn't write much in the past few days, plus, removing my tooth actually made me prone to stick to bed, thus I did not go to work today. My mood is just to sit and listen to Irish music. Still preparing for my trip in October though. There had been some ideas to shift it earlier to September but I guess I will make it on October. It is hard to change all the stuff that I did already.

I need to refresh my poetic memory and write something new. I get visions of some words but I can't make a full picture of it. I got lot of things to do tomorrow thus I don't think I would be able to write or think of something to write tomorrow. But in general, my life is peaceful for the current time, if I should say!

Celtic...

Been working on my writings for some days, and doing several things. My mind is kind of scattered, but one thing is assured, I have this weird urge to write poems like.. Lynn. I'm trying to chase after beauty wherever it comes, where it goes.
I've started to stay in the office all the day (I mean all the working day) instead of going back home and then come back here to do a fingerprint. My colleague is not helping when it comes to giving a helping hand with this!
However, I'm getting myself busy with so many things that I know I wouldn't be able to do them when I get back home or just get lazy about it! The only bad thing is that some stuff need a better PC than this laptop which I take with me to work. During working in that manner, I just keep the music rolling on everything Irish. Time passes so fast, specially when you play the same song or music again and again and never get your enough of it! It has been some time since I listened to Celtic music. It helps also to spark some ideas for writing the story of Alexander, and poems as well.

Weird toothache! I can't locate the pain, and even my dentist said everything is OK. I'm on antibiotics for some time now until next Saturday to check back for any changes. The pain comes specially when I have a raise in my blood pressure.

Planning to go to Failaka next weekend but not confirmed yet. Hope to get more and more nice photos from there! And, less seasickness.

Writing...

Things are going slowly since the last time I made an entry to this blog. Although I made a scan for the Betenic alphabet but I didn't pick up the forms that I would need and settle it down. Writing and writing and writing, this is what I'm doing at the current time as I'm trying to elevate my writing skills to a higher level via involving in www.writing.com.

This is the new born kitty in our yard. Been feeding them for some time now. S/He was so weak and almost lying on the ground without moving much, but things are getting better.
In work, I'm sick of some things but for the time being I got somehow numb... I do not feel a thing. Like, what the heck... why should I work? What am I doing here? After some thought into it, I did discover that my existance isn't really necessary there... all what I need is the money from there. Needless to say the annoying blabbering you always get.
I wrote a new poem and called it Mother Hugs Daughter. The words for this poem were revealed to me when I was looking at a picture of a friend, from US, hugging her daughter. Sometimes, simple things just let you get into a wave of emotions... for no real obvious reason but because it is what it is.
Let's hope I will be able to push things forward as soon as possible. I hate to leave things unfinished, otherwise I'm going to forget everything about it, and forever.

Experiment war Erfolgreich!

Today's topic is in German. You might ask what the hell is that or why it is like that! Well, first of all it means "the experiment was successful" and why it is in German, this is because I appreciate the guys who were spreading tutorials about cracking the fingerprint scanners.
I'm not going into details here, but it's enough to say that I made an experiment to record my attendance on the fingerprint machine and it worked out, so I can give my copy to anyone to do it for me. You might think I'm a bit like a criminal, well, to my ethics I am not... and that what matters to me. I'm not attending to hurt anyone anyway.

On the other hand I've been trying to find a place among the writers and some other sources of income and that kept away for some time from writing my own story of Alexander. For this reason, I registered in www.writing.com under the pen name "SeanFear." Some people there liked my poem called Insanity. It makes me relieved a bit to see some people do like it. I'm going to write other things as well. I did already write a short article (with a bad sense of humor) about my life being a physicist and a physics student.

Just today I made a scan of the proposed characters for the Betenic script (finally!). Lot of work is involved because I have to settle down and neglect some shapes as well.

Some shapes proposed for vowels (left) and consonants (right)

I need some time to reflect on those shapes and pick the best I like, then I'm going to write a short note and design a basic scheme for the grammar and the sounds of the language. The writing of Betenic goes from bottom to top, starting from the lower left corner of the page, and when you reach the end of the page (top), you'll have to rotate the page 90 degrees CounterClockWise and continue writing. So on you continue until the writing ends to the center of the page.
Betenic is an ayvaric language and it has this specific character of aspirations for some letters and might add a vowel specially made for aspirations at the end of some words.

Well, that is a relief for now. Somehow, breaking a system and the law makes you happy sometimes! Don't get me wrong please, I do not attend to hurt anyone or like to be a criminal, it is but the sense of freedom!

Geocities got bad news for me! Yahoo! systems want to close the Geocities system completely... thus, I have to find another place for my page(s). Not only that, but maybe I have to recreate everything. Now this news will delay my publishing for the chapters of Alexander's chronicles, but it might give me time to finish the 6th final part and also make a translation and a transliteration. I hope the transition of the data from there would be easy, but still there are some stuff that I need to change completely, specially the Flash animation.

Stress

Trying to compensate and to manage between the various stresses I had about work, so I'm concentrating more upon poetry and writing, and trying to find a career within that field. Many people advised before to find a place in that domain since they read my poetry before.
In the time being I just finished writing my newest poem, Take Me. It is weird how one, or me at least, writes a poem. you don't feel anything... only words flow through your fingers. You smells things are not there, and see things you never did see before. A world of imagination and dreams (not necessarily happy ones) and then, tata, you are finished.
On the other side, I'm thinking also of stepping into the designing world, specially in the field of educational posters. I made some posters already for work, I believe I can handle that... all what I need is materials and ads.

Still writing on the story of Alexander and might as well soon finish, or let's say, get into the last scenery or last patch of the story. In the same time, I'm working on with my previous recordings to add some effects and change the pitch of my voice. Although I previously decided to do everything in Flash format but, seems I'm not gona use it completely... and I'm gona add the contents of the chapters one by one.

I think it is the time to prepare for my vacation in October now. I should start filling my visa application!

Hard Time...

Work situation is getting aggressive a bit. More buttons to be pushed upon my head that makes me really think about resignation. Maybe I better be doing something more care-free. I've been seriously looking after some online jobs and stuff, specially those related to writing.
I did not do the required fingerprinting stuff today. It is the first day of the NEW HOLY system. I lowered down my recommendations to, at least, have a scanner machine in our building, which is something no one thought of before. We are neglected.

Here and there, I really don't know how long I can cope in here. I wish if I can just leave this and be some where else... at least for some time. My mind is clogged that I cannot think about anything in the time being, neither I can work out on the story of Alexander.

Today we had an opening ceremony for the second poster day in college and our center showed some posters that I did (3 actually). It's like the last year since we did not have the chance to print out more and new posters already.

As you can see I started to work with ads. The above link is a direct link to my profile in www.canstockphoto.com, where I upload some of my photos for selling. If you read this, go ahead and see, you might like something there!

The heart is longing for a poem, but yet the mind cannot find the words for it.

The Charnagút

The Charnagút

Here you find a scan for my own sketch of the Charnagut. I did not plan for this shape in the beginning but it was my hand that works separated from my imagination and mind. The scan looks weird with grey blocks as you can see, because the scan was done on 2 parts then combined together. The sketching book was so large for the scanner to take it all.
The sword looks small so I had to lengthen it a bit after the scan.
The work is going on now on vectorizing parts of the sword, and then each part of it shall be rasterized and be as an image by itself. I'm pushing far behind my abilities, this is what I think. I'm not an artist after all.

I can barely think clearly these days.... work... home..... everything is stressing me out. Sometimes I do think really of leaving work and do something else related to art... something that keeps me free instead of being like a slave or a prisoner to the stupid working conditions and laws in this state.

I got myself a little notebook lately, with a special green pen specifically for this note. It is to record any ideas I might encounter suddenly or any words of poetry that I might use later on. You don't know when are you going to use such things one day.

Today, Friday, I hope I would have a brainstorm to write something in Alexnader's story... I've passed the 2000 limit already (or to be so soon). I finished recording all the voice clips for all the previous parts (1-5), and now the part for the sound effects comes. After that I have to figure out a way to pin it down on the web.